Below is my traditional month by month recap for 2017.
|A small glimpse of the remodel.|
From the moment I moved into what was supposed to be "our" house, the Narcissist made it extremely clear that I was an inconvenience to him, disrupting his life. He told me I needed to move out on January 26th, 2017, the same day that I officially turned over the keys to the apartment.
|After the "Reno Run 4 Love."|
February was devoted to volunteering with the local FRC team. I welcomed it as a distraction, as things at home were not going well. The Narcissist and I also ran a four mile race together
. I was hoping it would be a fresh start, but he had drastically different plans.
|Just chilling with my Olive Thief in my own apartment.|
It is safer to live alone than to live with someone who does not want you.
The Narcissist continued to make it very clear that he wanted out of our marriage. Shortly after our third wedding anniversary, I realized I needed to give him what he wanted because my life was on the line. His abuse crossed undeniably into the physical realm when he went to inject my Solu-Cortef straight into a bone on March 10th, 2017
I had to escape and escape fast. I moved into a casino for a few days as I started the proceedings for a divorce. Eventually, I was able to pick up keys to my own apartment with the incredible support of my family and a few friends.
|I am Clearly Alive.|
April was dedicated to surviving
the minefield of divorcing a Narcissistic abuser
. Dear readers, I hope you never have to experience that. It is beyond terrifying. But I am Clearly Alive.
|I love my family. I could not have escaped without their support.|
On May 11th, 2017, the judge signed the divorce decree making it legal and binding. Later in the month, I visited Texas for a work conference. This allowed me to meet up with my family afterwards.
|When fleeing an abusive narcissist, I had to abandon a great deal of personal property.|
I moved back to Texas in a single Relo-cube and a loaded up Toyota Matrix.
I left Nevada in June. My employer understood my situation and fully supported my move to safety. My parents helped me finish packing up what limited items I was able to recover after the divorce. Before I left, I was able to visit Tahoe one last time to say good-bye. It thanked me by snowing. In. June.
|Disneyland!!!! Where I am celebrating my Freedom.|
|Clearly Alive and FREE!|
I was finally able to swim in the ocean with my cortisol pump.
|Hanging out with former coworkers at Oktoberfest.|
These guys were around during the Nightmare Crisis of 2013.
So many things have changed since then.
|My mom and I carving pumpkins.|
October marked my first month at my new job. I have a wonderful manager, supportive team, and a role where I am able to shine. I did have to visit a local ER for IV fluids, which was supposed to set me up with a local endocrinologist. However, that doctor was uncomfortable treating me
due to my cortisol pump
. My parents visited me for my birthday, and it filled their hearts with so much joy to see me thriving in my new location. I also was given the birthday gift of OVER 250,000 blog views
! To my Clearly Alive community, thank you.
|On a three mile run / hike.|
In November, I completed two 5k's
, winning awards in both of them
. I also started an oil painting class. One of the ladies from that class graciously invited me to spend Thanksgiving with her wonderful family. I added to my own little family with the adoption of Henry Glitch
, but I did end up back in the ER for more IV fluids. November also marked the 5th anniversary of this blog
|Cortisol pump strapped to my arm. Blue skies in the background.|
Ready for adventure.
On my last day in the office for 2017, I was giving a coworker the spark note version of this past year. He confessed he had no idea how I survived so much. He looked at me straight in the eyes and passionately stated "2017 has set you up for an absolutely amazing 2018."
I wanted to cry as I allowed his words to sink in. There were several times this past year that I honestly did not believe I would make it. But I did. I celebrated Christmas with my family before my mom and I headed out on our seven day cruise in the Caribbean. Although, I did have to make another pit stop in another ER for IV fluids the day before I got on the boat.
As for 2018? Heart
says it best: "ONWARD to GOOD THINGS!
|My motto for 2018.|